3 years now my sweetheart, my darling Jonathan. I don't know where the time goes. I watch videos if you and hear your voice and it seems like you are maybe just in the next room, or just up at Hampton Court at work, and I'm still waiting for you to come home. It seems so very impossible that my strong, vivacious, full of life and precence husband is gone from this world. I don't think I will ever accept it, ever believe it. I miss you so very much Jonathan, my best friend, my dear love, my soulmate. One day we will be together again and I love you for eternity xxxxx