I have finally commissioned your headstone my sweetheart. It just took me a very long time to settle on what to put on it & in fact to consider putting your name onto the permanence of granite. I am glad it will be done as your little wooden cross, which somehow seemed so much more fitting bot in materials & lack of permanence, has finally given up it's upright stance. But I still find it so hard to accept that I even need to get you a headstone - you should be alive & vital beside me. But when it's done I'll go & move the bulbs & plants & replant them around it. I just miss you so much Jonathan, such little words which carry such weight. You are forever in my heart and mind & I love you xxxx